“to strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield”
(Alfred, Lord Tennyson, 1833/1842, Ulysses)

Publisher’s Note

As a multidisciplinary journal, we embrace the concept of consilience proposed by E. O. Wilson in his 1998 book, Consilience: The Unity of Knowledge. Wilson believed that “the humanities, ranging from philosophy and history to moral reasoning, comparative religion, and interpretation of the arts, will draw closer to the sciences and partly fuse with them” (J. Horgan, Scientific American, June 25, 2021).

This is the first time that the concept of consilience is used to “unite” applied, psychoanalytic, medical, and organizational anthropology; psychohistory; psychoanalytic study of workplace organizations; rural medicine and rural health; and many more fields of knowledge, especially written in a poetic form. Even the sequence of the presented poems interweaves all seasons of life and daily experiences, some of which are as (deceptively) simple as opening a carton of milk or appreciating an old exercise bicycle, while the others delve into the darkest or the brightest corners of one’s soul. We thank the author, Howard F. Stein, for such a unique contribution to humanity.

Author’s Introduction

Most broadly conceived, consilience is the creative science and art of juxtaposing and attempted synthesizing, of ideas and concepts that, superficially, do not seem to belong together. They are not widely considered to be part of the same taxonomic “family” (dwell in separate universes of discourse). Sometimes they are even officially prohibited from being linked. The possibility of any convergence is counterintuitive or unthinkable.

Consider the widespread American slogan, “You cannot mix apples and oranges,” or “You are confusing apples with oranges.” Certainly, at one level of discourse, pomology science, they are different kinds of seed-bearing fruits of different species of trees. Yet, in ordinary cultural language, they both have in common that they are in the same taxonomic category as fruit, in contrast, say, with vegetables or meats. Apples and oranges as categories, converge into fruits.

To pursue this homely metaphor, from the perspective of consilience, it is not only acceptable but encouraged to conduct Galilean “thought experiments,” that is, in mind, that would see what happens when you put symbolic apples and oranges together. The history of science is replete with the discovery of new entities and theories, and with integrating, or at least placing side by side, thoughts that may appear unrelated to each other.

Before proceeding to the poems, I wish to add a caveat: as devil’s advocate, to be fair, there are limits even to consilience. To my knowledge, not everything can be gathered into a single, ever-more encompassing system. On the one hand, Einsteinian and Heisenbergian relativity and quantum physics could subsume Newtonian and Galilean theory within its boundaries, as a special case under specific conditions. But water and oil are immiscible, cannot dissolve and constitute a single entity. With this qualification in mind, consilience remains a powerful meta- or overarching framework for “more than meets the eye.”

Let me now turn to the seven poems in this collection. The set consists of at once separate, distinct poems, each to be read and reflected upon on its own terms; and are, I propose, related members of a larger group, perhaps overlapping sets as in Venn diagrams. The search for “common denominators” and convergences takes place at a mentally deep level, where they are never the same, identical, with each other, but exemplify and participate in similar underlying processes, a kind of underground river.

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The titles of the individual poems are: “Finality,” “Exercise Bicycle, Senior Cener,” “Anatomy Lesson of a Light Bulb Socket,” “Lunchtime, or Nobody Home,” “Lavender Pink,” “Open Other Side,” and “My Worst Day.” These poems are about the many universes in which I dwell. Let me now offer some “associations” about (or backstories of) the poems.

(1) “Finality”

Year after year, I navigated through the often-violent waters of the change of seasons, from infernal summer through stormy and relentlessly rainy autumn, and the triumphant invasion of winter.

(2) “Exercise Bicycle, Senior Center”

As I grow older and more physically infirm, I hold close the near-redemptive quality of spending two days per week at a Daily Living Center as a boost to my morale with fellow elderly human beings who face uncertain futures, and many staff members who care and offer gentle pats and real hugs. Here I have developed an almost personal relationship with a massive old stationary exercise bicycle.

(3) “Anatomy Lesson of a Light Bulb Socket”

Amid chronic experience of emotional abandonment and isolation in my own home of 25 years, I developed a bizarre (even clinically diagnosable?) yet comforting “personal” relationship with an ordinary incandescent table lamp on a table next to my bed, by gently running my fingers along the socket, touching its smooth metallic surface, and feeling touched back, even by an inanimate object.

(4) “Lunchtime,” or “Nobody Home”

I experience a sense of surprise and wonder at being able to communicate with an elderly woman whom I thought I could never “reach,” but who reached out to me and opened for me a carton of milk.

(5) “Lavender Pink”

In the organization where I worked for many years, a particular co-worker, Helen, and I often collaborated on projects. We quickly resonated with each other; our minds interwoven as if we were dancing in addressing any given task. Our relationship deepened into friendship, intensity alternating with playful flirting. We began to complete each other’s sentences, quickly comprehend each other’s thoughts, then take them further. In the opposite of competitive rivalry, we urged each other on. Time and again, we were amazed about where our ideas took us, places entirely different from where we had planned and originally thought we were going. It was as if some sort of separate mind took us where we needed to go.

Then, suddenly, Helen’s husband’s job took him to another, distant city. Her own skills were transferrable virtually anywhere. … And then she was gone, disappeared. I was devastated at every imaginable level, from task to entwined lives and emotions. From somewhere in this void, a poem began to form in my mind.

(6) “Open Other Side”

At the largely senior Daily Living Center where I spend 1-2 days per week, several staff aides summon us to the lunch tables in the back of the room around 11:15 AM. As we “residents” seat ourselves at the long tables, one aide brings a cart around that contains small cartons of milk with a straw. She sets them whenever participants ask for one.

Each carton is marked at the top of one side “Open” and on the other “Open other side.” Many of us can open them easily; others struggle; sometimes people in adjacent chairs or across the table help open cartons for those who are unable. For many people, staff open the cartons for them and insert the straw. One lesson I quickly learned from this single event is that nothing is always obvious, and nothing is always simple. From this realization emerged a fantasy, then a poem, in part humorous, in part earnest, about the mystery of opening a simple plastic covered cardboard milk carton.

(7) “My Worst Day” (originally “Nooses”)

“Co-morbidities” is a medical term for when a person/patient suffers from multiple, concurrent diseases. What about those days, or periods, in life when just about everything goes wrong? Goat rope hints at it. One day — and there have been many — I was so overwhelmed that I asked myself something like “What is the point of living like this — or even of living?” My discouragement bordered on despair. I was not “suicidal,” but I felt lifeless.

As I dwelled in the midst of this abyss, seeing no way out, a poem began to take shape in my mind. About bleakness, about hopelessness, about nowhere to turn. I thought of a heavy rope and a hangman’s noose. Then suddenly the last line descended upon me. I burst out laughing, as a cliche twisted into a pun. My mood immediately lifted: I had been saved by my own poem.

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These poems and the lives behind them do not somehow “add up.” I experience their relationship as more a confluence of streams into some undiscovered river. They weave themselves into an unfinishable tapestry, a rhythm of merging and separating and flowing into each other again – to create something I could not have imagined.

This group of poems is thus a “collection,” an “assortment” of strangers who, in me, become familiars to each other, a community. The rule and cliché read that the whole is greater than the sum of its parts. True, but it misses the flow of the poems, and the wells from which they draw, into each other, re-creating and astonishing even the supposed poet who created them.

To use a different metaphor, imagine all these words, images, metaphors, emotions all existing in some kind of interwoven constellation, like mythic configurations in the night sky (I detest the more mathematical, abstract notion of “matrix” in this context.). That is the fabric in which all these poems are interconnected, though they can be read and understood separately. Does this image and evocation make any sense to You, my Reader? After you read – I hope aloud, and hear – the poems, I encourage you to return to this Introduction and see if it rings true for you – another test of consilience!

Finality

Neither frost nor wind
Give fall its finality,
But the rain brings autumn
To its knees —
Endless rain, driving rain,
Drenching rain, misting rain,
Rain of as many kinds
As Eskimo have words
For snow.
Rain rakes the leaves

From their moorings
Until the branches are bare.

Autumn rain turns to flight
Any thought of summer settledness.
Autumn rain is the secret
Of summer’s rout.
Not cold, not wind – in autumn,
Rain has the final say.

Exercise Bicycle, Senior Center

Against a long wall,
Lodged between stored chairs
In a games and crafts room,
Sits a cast iron exercise bicycle
Of massive heft,
Made by the Everlast Company
No later than the 1940’s.

I mount the exercise bicycle
Once a day to strengthen
My legs and knees
Made rigid and weak
By Parkinson’s disease.

Dashboard buttons and gauges
Have ceased to perform their function –
Start/Stop, Reset, Recovery,
Enter, Up/Down Arrows.
RPM Speed, Time, Distance,
Pulse, Blank Screen –
No Vital Signs Left.

Once versatile in its day,
Now its pedals are fixed
At a single speed, though still
Good enough for a workout.

Two jalopies,
Mounter and mounted,
We fly high in the wind.

Anatomy Lesson of a Light Bulb Socket

Doctors call me a “train wreck,”
With “multiple organ system involvement”:
Difficult breathing, shaky heart, inhaling food,
Loss of brain matter, muscle weakness,
Electrical system failures, depression,
Gargoyle feet, staggering imbalance,
What they call “falls in the elderly” …
Lots of medical treatments – occasionally
The many specialty doctors read each other’s
Electronic chart notes that shed
Important light on my life,
But many go it alone.
My family doctor has thus far
Kept this Humpty Dumpty
On top of the wall.

I’ve developed a few home remedies
To address some associated
“Mental health” and “family function”
Issues of despair, desolation, isolation,
Solitary confinement, abandonment,
Untouchable except for circumscribed
Object-ive clinical management
(like living in Fritz Lang’s 1927 futuristic
Film Metropolis, where gears flawlessly mesh) –
Think of it as “failure to thrive,”
But at least still “alive.”

Five old, frayed, soft cotton
Terry cloth bath robes
Envelop me where I sleep.
I have placed around the room
Four Himalayan salt lamps
That glow a gentle orange,
To orient me and quiet my heart.
My robes and my lamps
Comfort me; they are
Now my people, my friends,
Companions, hardly inanimate artifacts.

Of all my home remedies,
I save the best for last:
A brushed brass shell and base,
Turn knob incandescent bulb socket.
My near-useless Parkinsonian fingers
Explore incandescent light bulb
Sockets gently with my fingertips,
Attentive to the brushed brass
With round, smooth surfaces,
That alternate with dull edges
Where parts fit together.

Peripheral neuropathy makes
It difficult to distinguish between
Cold metal touch at the base,
And warming as my fingers
Slowly ascend toward the light bulb.
Midway protrudes a round plastic
Turn knob my poorly articulating
Thumb and index finger try
And often fail to turn the lamp on and off.

Here two anatomy lessons
Meet, not only for me
To execute a simple function,
But also, for my socket and I
To touch each other,
Keep each other company
In the dark, first as
Acquaintances, soon friends.
I often think of us
As two intimates who spend
The night together.

I could not dare think
Of my bulb socket
As a mere thing.
To me this socket is life.

Lunchtime, or Nobody Home

Despite new hearing aids,
I do not hear summons
To lunch. I must take my cue
From watching others
Get up from their recliners –
With or without assistance –
To walk to the eating area
Of the senior day care center.
Four parallel rows
Of folding tables occupy the back
Of this vast, rectangular room.
A fifth row sits perpendicular
To the others, this one for
“Participants” who require assistance
From nursing aides for eating and drinking.
Administrators and staff mandate
That we are not called “patients.”

A slow, clumsy walking
Parkinsonian laggard,
I arrive at the tables and catch sight
Of an empty chair next to a woman,
Perhaps in her eighties, with wild
White hair. I sit next to her, smile,
Say hello, grateful to find
A place still unoccupied.
I ask her how she was today.
She smiles but says no words.
I notice she speaks with no one.
I conclude that she is not communicative –
I have “concluded” a lot in my life.
I try several times to engage her
With eye contact and a few words,
With no response except for a brief smile.
Then she disappears.

We all sit patiently at the tables, wait
For nurses’ aides to bring Styrofoam
Trays with molded compartments of food.
Styrofoam cups with ice water and
Small packets of plastic utensils
Already sit on the tables as place settings.
I have not noticed I lack them.
Suddenly my silent companion
Reaches across the table from
Where she sits, carefully lifts
A cup of ice water and places it
In front of me. She follows
With reaching for the adjacent
Plastic utensil pack, opens it,
And places its contents in front of me.
I turn to her, nod my gratitude,
And thank her. She returns
A slight smile, then retreats
To her world – my world, now
Overturns with amazement over
What has just happened.

Soon, staff members bring
Trays of hot lunch, place one
In front of each of us.
I notice that they give
Some of us a small carton of milk.
I ask if I could also have one.
An aide brings one and sets it,
With its paper-sheathed straw,
To the upper left outside my tray.
I thank her and continue
With my meal. As I eat,
The milk carton sits unopened.

Suddenly my silent companion
Reaches slowly for the carton,
Clasps it in her right hand,
Then brings it in front of her.
With much effort she opens it,
Though with only enough room
For the straw to fit in.
She then meticulously unsheathes
The straw, puts the paper down,
And inserts the straw.
I wonder what her next
Step will be – keep it
For herself or return it to me,
Ready to drink. Without hesitation,
She carefully lifts the carton
With her right hand and arm,
And places it to the left of my tray,
Precisely where she had gotten it.
I look toward her with a grin,
Thank her. Her voice makes some
Gentle sound of acknowledgment.
Her eyes smile at me.
We both return to eating our lunch.

I sit spellbound at what
Just happened. When I first
Sat next to her at the table,
I was sure “nobody was home.”
Perhaps dementia or Alzheimer’s
Made whoever she once was disappear.
Now that I realize
What she has just done,
I am certain
I am the one
Who is “not home.”
I disappear her,
Then cannot recognize
How much “there” she is –
On her own terms.

Maybe I will learn
To observe
As well as she does,
And to be as thoughtful
As she is.

Lavender Pink

“Alone, alone, all, all alone,
Alone on a wide wide sea!”
(Samuel Taylor Coleridge, The Rime of the Ancient Mariner)

Minutes before you left
For the last time
Where we had worked
Together for years,
You enveloped me
In the fiercest hug,
Looked at my old face
With eyes that
Glowed of galaxies.

Then you turned toward
The front door to say
Many other fond good-byes,
Walked out to your
Awaiting drive home,
Final packing of remaining
Boxes, loaded them
With your husband
Onto a rental truck,
Climbed into the front cab,
Started down the street
Toward the highway
And five states westward,
A new home,
A new job, a new life.
You were from there,
This trip a return.

I stood immobile,
Incapable of thought.
I do not remember
What I did when I
Returned to my office –
Only that some kind
Of sudden electrical surge
Jolted me out of this stupor.
My frantic search began,
For who and what could
Never again be found.
But never mind – surely
You were still here,
Somewhere in the maze
Of offices on our
Floor of the building.
It was only a matter
Of looking everywhere
I could remember
You had been.

I had seen you
Walk out the front door,
But dared not give up
My search, because
I knew better you still
Were here; it was only
A matter of finding you
In some familiar place.
Persist and be patient –
I rallied myself,
Enlisted the aid of several
Co-workers; perhaps
They had seen her.
Each one told me
Only that she had left.
They all must be wrong –

Lavender Pink no more
To be found, too
Abhorrent to conceive.
Lavender Pink,
The name I gave her
From the beginning.
She was the heath fields
That carpet craggy
Hills of Scotland –
Delicate, lovely,
Tough.

Over days, then weeks,
Months, my quest
Grew more urgent as I fled
From that abhorrent word:

Gone. Anything to forestall
Any thought of thinking it,
Let alone saying it.

As we worked
On office projects,
We completed each other’s
Thoughts and sentences,
Followed each other’s
Paragraphs with new
Paragraphs that flowed
Seamlessly one into the next.
We each often thought
What the other was thinking
Before one of us said it
Ourselves. We rarely knew
Or cared whose thought
Was whose. Our two
Voices sang as one.

We answered questions,
Came up with solutions,
And had no idea
How we did it.
Lavender Pink and I
Seemed even to breathe
Together. It never became
“an affair,” though it was
As intimate any human
Being could wish for.

Then came today.
My long spell was broken –
I had never thought
Of it as a spell:
It was life itself,
As is she, as was she,
Present tense now
Shattered on the floor
Like glass.
Lavender Pink,
You are my
Engine and rudder,
Captain of my heart.
Now with your absence
My ship is lost at sea.

Open Other Side

Simple things …
Unexpectedly
Not so simple,

Lunch at the Senior Center.
We sit on opposite sides
Of long tables, awaiting
Aides to bring our trays.
I open a wax-coated cardboard
Carton of milk, each time the same.
Next step, insert a straw
Into the wide opening.
Drink. Simple. Routine . . .

Near the top of every
Milk carton I’ve seen,
One side reads, “Open here,”
As the opposite side reads,
“Open other side.”
Today something’s changed –
I cannot pry open the spout.
Chagrin. This has never
Happened before:
What am I doing wrong?

I examine the carton
Carefully; strange,
On this one, both sides say,
“Open other side.”
Both ends stapled shut.
Who could make this up?

How, then, to access
The milk to drink?
I pull and tug
At the top of the carton,
Try to pry the top apart –
But fear if I pull too hard,
Even with my meagre
Parkinsonian strength,
I will let go one end,
And milk will fly
All over table
And floor.

Out of nowhere,
The corner of my eyes
Catches a pack
Of plastic eating utensils –
Fork, knife, spoon.
I notice the knife
Is serrated for
Limited cutting.
I lift it into
My unsteady
Right hand, grasp
The carton with

My other feeble hand,
Then saw away,
Praying the knife’s
Cutting edge is not
Too dull for the carton.
I manage to saw
Through the cardboard,
Cut a small open space –
Mineshaft to the milk.
I insert the straw,
And finally drink –
As if it were
Triumph over a foe.

I am the chimp
I saw sixty years back
In a film about primitive
Thought and tool use.
The chimp encountered
An obstacle between
Himself and a familiar
Banana. What to do?
This situation was new.
He looked and looked,
Walked from one side
Of the barrier to the other.
Suddenly he discovered
A nearby stick, strode
Over to it, grasped it
With one of his hands,
Turned his head
Toward the wooden chair
And adjacent roadblocks,
Then for a few seconds,
Didn’t move.

The chimp returned
With his stick to the barrier,
Crouched down, used
His stick as a probe
Beneath and behind the chair,
Slowly nudged
The banana toward him.
Victory! He held
His prize in his hand,
Then began to eat it.

Was he pleased?
Or am I imagining
The chimp and I
Would think alike
In moments like this? –
When something
So simple
Is no longer simple,
I welcome a chimp
To come to my aid.

My Worst Day

On a single day,
I have journeyed
In many hemispheres –
All lifeless,
All discouraging.

I have reached
The end of my rope
(no noose nearby),
My only solace –
No noose is a good noose.


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